When I walk into a room I feel like eyes are glaring at me. “Are they judging me? What do these people think about me? Why would they even want to speak to me?” My head sometimes won’t stop saying hurtful things in my mind that I know deep down aren’t true.
With that going on internally, when I talk to people I first meet I tend to act overly confident to hide the fear and low self-esteem I really do have. Even if I meet someone genuinely nice, I worry that they’re only talking to me for a fake, negative reason, like they don’t really want to get to know me, which is a completely irrational thought that my mind made up.
I realized the voices in my head can’t crush my spirit and my fake confidence is now starting to become my actual persona today.